I’ve been losing followers i guess due to the fact i’m hardly ever on or reblog anything. I’ve been working mostly and well i’ve lost interest in this. Lately i’ve had alot on my mind and i rather write in down in my journal, i find it quite therapeutic. Christmas eve started off great until i got to work. I found out i might not see the guy i have been crushing on for four months. I didn’t see him on the schedule and i haven’t seen him around. I don’t have all the details yet but i just hope he didn’t quit or get fired. For some reason it just ruined my day. Just when i finally got a hug from him and called me his friend, this happens. lol  I don’t know why this is bothering me soo much. I keep telling myself it was a crush, a very big crush. Nothing was obviously ever going to happen but it was nice having him around and seeing his adorable face. Sorry for the long post, but i just had too lol. Well i just wanted to say Merry Christmas and i hope everyone has a safe and memorable holidays.